Before I continue with my story, of how everything unfolded after I discovered my husband's pornography addiction, I wanted to take a moment and tell you the end of our story (or at least where things stand now). I realize this isn't necessarily the world's best writing technique. I mean, why would you come back for the rest of the story when I go off and spoil the ending for you? But I do hope you'll join me for the entire story as it unfolds and even feel comfortable sharing my story on various social networks because it might just save someone's marriage.
So why am I telling you the ending of the story? Because I want you to have hope. If you're a woman who just discovered you're husband's been looking at porn, or if you are personally struggling, I want you to know three things:
1) There Can Be Victory
2) There Can Be Forgiveness
3) There Is Hope
I described the pornography in our marriage as an unseen cancer. There was always something wrong, but it was the discovery that brought the healing, for my husband, for me, and for our marriage. It was the discovery of one sin, that actual led to radical changes in both of our lives.
It's taken us three years to get to where we are now. Maybe healing would have come quicker had we gone to a counselor, but that's a blog post in itself. I don't pretend to be an expert on this "process" but I do know Christ can heal anything.
There has been plenty of joy in the past three years, and honestly I am honored to be used of God. I truly feel my husband's struggle with pornography was so deep he never would have been able to pull himself out if God hadn't intervened and mercifully let me see evidence of his problem. He had accountability partners in the past, but it took my husband knowing his wife knew the whole ugly truth to rise up and become the man God intended him to be.
The changes God wrought in my husband, have been amazing. His life is bearing fruit in ways it never did. In the same way I knew my husband had a problem with pornography before I discovered it, I know he isn't looking at it now (that and our computers have safe guards out the yazoo, but that's another post entirely).
So as you read this story, please hold no malice in your heart for my husband. He is an amazing man of God and I love him more than anything. God set him free from an addiction that enslaved him for over a decade. Nothing is impossible with God!
If you've discovered your spouse or child has been looking at or is addicted to internet pornography there is hope. Christ can restore anything. I hope my family's story will encourage you as you begin a journey of healing.
Internet pornography is a leading cause of divorce and the fastest growing addiction. YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS AFFECTED BY PORNOGRAPHY. Take a moment to share this post, so someone who you might not even realize is suffering may be blessed by it. Sharing this post might just save a marriage.
Thank you for having the courage to share you story. I am 3 months into this journey and it is so encouriaging to hear the stories of those that have come through it. There is a lot out there on what to do if you discover this is happening but not alot on the process to healing for the wife. I look forward to the rest of your story. Praise God for the victory that you and your husband have!
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